Oh God, it feels like forever. Delicious weight pins me to the bed; your lips conquer mine and I moan continuously; your soft growls drive me crazy.

 

What was that stupid song we were singing at the hotel the night before your wedding? I can’t remember what it was but we thought it was hilarious. The guests in the rooms on either side of ours certainly hated it enough to complain to the manager. No matter how hard he banged on the door we just got louder and louder ‘til we reached the last verse.

 

Oh God, it feels like forever. Dark golden skin glistening in the candlelight; soft tips hardening and legs parting unconsciously; my much lighter skin tone just seemed so odd but right against yours.

 

What was the score of the game during the last game of your senior year in college? I can’t remember but I do know you were pissed. Your girl certainly didn’t appreciate finding the popcorn and pretzels on the floor and your beer spilled on her couch. I nearly choked on my beer laughing when she made you get off that cute ass of yours and clean it up.

 

Oh God, it feels like forever. Firm muscles flexing beneath my hands; my nails digging into your back and your hissing breaths warming my ear; your wet heat grinding against my thigh distracting me again and again.

 

What was that restaurant you took me to when you found out you were pregnant? I can’t remember what it was and I can’t even begin to remember where but the waffles were perfect even though it was four in the afternoon. The waitress must’ve thought I was nuts when I jumped up from the bench and yelled for all I was worth. I just couldn’t contain my happiness at seeing your dreams coming true.

 

Oh God, it feels like forever. Calloused hands turn to silk as they caress me; I can barely keep my eyes open as your fingers slide home and I gasp when your palm grinds into my clit; I can’t help but lose myself in our passion.

 

What day of the week was it when the two of you invited me into your bed? Well, at the time it was a sleeping bag but I digress. I can’t remember but I do know it was the best day of my life. I was scared out of my mind and exhilarated at the same time. I’d never imagined either of you could want me like that.

 

Oh God, it feels like forever. Her lithe body writhes beneath my hand; I grunt from the force of it as you enter me from behind and I impale myself on your cock again and again; mindless lust mixes with endless love and we let it take us over.

 

What was the name of the movie we went to on that Valentines Day? I can’t remember but I thought it was sweet despite how much it hurt at the time. I was hurting from the breakup and so damn lonely. Back then I thought you took me out because you felt bad for me but now I know it was because you loved me and couldn’t bear to see me alone. You’ve no idea how much I wanted you to touch me that night.

 

Oh God, it feels like forever. Blue-green eyes glint up at me from between my thighs; a hot tongue drills into my cunt and I moan deep in my throat; my clit throbs and I lose myself in the sensations as I drown in your eyes.

 

What was I doing when my whole world ended? I can’t remember but I clearly recall the sound of her choked sobs and the sensation of my heart lodging in my throat. You left a wife and a kid and now they’re my responsibility. No matter how hard I try I’ll never fill the gaping hole you left.

 

Oh God, it feels like forever. She cries and cries and I hold her close; her lips are harsh and demanding in her grief and I don’t bother to try to slow it down; it hurts so much but it feels so damn good on emotions scraped raw and nerve endings long since bared.

 

What in the Hell am I supposed to do? I don’t have a clue but I have no choice but to stand by her side. Two sets of eyes; one identical to yours and another darker than mine, look to me in expectation and I take their hands. My heart cries out in pain and my mind cries out in terror as I lead them to your final resting place. I close my eyes, refusing to look and I pray.

 

Oh God, it feels like forever. Trembling hands tear at my suit; there’s fire in her eyes and I try to help but she slaps my hands away; she’s relentless in her assault on my senses and I nearly lose myself to it before she finally breaks down and lets her grief pour out. I hold her close and I choke back my own tears.

 

What are we gonna do? I don’t know and now you’re not here to slap me in the head when I need straightened out. It was a surprise to find that everyone expected me to be the one to step up to take care of our family and I’m sure one day I’ll find it funny that some of them almost always thought there was something “strange” between the three of us. But for now there’s just this emptiness in my heart that’s killing me with every passing day.

 

Oh God, it feels like forever since I got lost in your blue-green eyes. I would if I could drown in them willingly and I know if you were here you’d make some wisecrack about me not being able to swim. I miss your arms, I miss your strength, I miss your hands on me; I miss seeing your arms around her and I miss seeing your eyes light up. I miss our wrestling matches, I miss teasing you about your age, I miss taking up most of the couch during your favorite shows; most of all I miss hearing your voice, seeing you smile and I miss just knowing you’re there.

 

Tell me, will I ever see the ocean without shedding a single tear?

 

 

The End